Saturday, October 25, 2008

A (late) Friday 55 - Goodbye, Daddy

I close my eyes

They misunderstand,

Reassuring “It’s okay to cry”

But I’m just saying, “Goodbye.”

With eyes closed,

breaths deep

I can smell him next to me

Inhale – wood and grass, exhale.

Inhale – varnish and dishsoap, exhale.

Inhale – Old Spice and jetfuel, exhale.

Daddy, I love you, be at peace.

Missy, I’m right here.”

My dad spent twenty years flying in the Air Force, and another (almost) 20 playing in a hardware store. He could make anything from wood, had the best-looking yard on the block, and thought I could do anything.

My father passed away yesterday morning, after a long, painful battle with multiple ailments. It was not a surprise, but I am still sad. My faith assures me that he is in a much better place, and I have no doubts of this. This is a photo of him and me on his birthday when I went home in August.


lecram said...

He is in a better place.... take solace in that.

You know who and when to call when you need to. :)

mintzworks said...

Well, your dad was can do anything.

lime said...

aww jayne, i'm sorry to hear it. you're blessed to have had such a wonderful father. it makes his absence more keenly felt. i pray the memory of his blessing is a comfort to you and the rest of your family.

big hugs.

airplanejayne said...

lecram - as always, thank you.

mintzy - I'm glad you think so. :)

lime - yes, he was wonderful.

Lelly said...

That's a lovely tribute to your father Jayne. I'm very sorry for your loss,wish I could give you a big hug. Lelly xx

Flash said...

My deepest sympathies for you and your family.

But in my opinion, he raised one hell of a daughter, and I'm sure he's up there looking down with nothing but pride.

airplanejayne said...

lelly - come hug me in March!

flash - thank you sweetie!

KFarmer said...

I'm so sorry dove, so sorry...You have my deepest sympathy. I will keep you and all your family in my prayers.

KIEN LIM said...

My heart, thoughts and prayers are with you and your family.

Aileen said...

Jayne, his strength is now a part of you.

By the way, I have something for you the next time we are face to face.